Over the past year plus, I have noticed several changes in myself and my everyday life.
These changes arose mainly from 2 events of my life thus far.
First, my job in my current company which I started beginning of 2011.
And second, of course, would be the end of my 6 years relationship with my ex.
Perhaps one may say that it really isn't a change in me, but rather just a resurface of my innate personality. Who knows? Even I, myself, isn't very sure.
2 years ago, I was in a job role whereby I deal with machines and equipment all day. I have a list of tasks to complete everyday and at the end of the day, if I managed to complete it, the day ends good. Everything is within my control and up to myself. Equipments and machines never fails you if you treat it with care and concern. Hence, at the end of the day, I would yearn for some human interaction despite my hikikomori nature. I would often organise gatherings, outings and BBQs at my place.
With my current job role, I deal with people everyday. Different types of people from different departments all within the same company, each with different political agenda. Everyday is a constant drone of tasks which are very dependent on other people's input. I am no longer in control on how well I do my job. Facing human is a bugazillion more difficult that facing a machine anytime!
Nowadays, I can't wait for my work to be over at the end of the day so I can go home and face my machines. Gone are the old days of organising activities. Even stepping out of my room turns me off sometimes. The most would be to go for a night drive in my Rei.
And now that I am single, there is even less point of me going out. Back then, I would still want to go out time to time as my partner is the outgoing type. Now there is no need for such compromise, my inner hikikomori self is grinning from mouth to ears. Stay at home, surf the net, watch videos, listen to music, read stuffs... My friends' parents question them why they are back home late, mine question me why I am back home early! LOL.
Well I guess time changes people and lives, I shall end this post with a short poem...
Forever, nothing will last.
Eternity, the only change is.
Diamond to Dust, with time will shape...
